And then there was … silence. After months of working intensively and afterwards a month traveling… She’s back.
At least – that’s what her environment tells her. Back at home, back at work, back with her family and friends. But for her it’s just like someone else is back. Who she was before, seems lost in space and time. Where is she? How did she live her life before? It’s like she’s not able to get it back.
Give her time. Give her a month. Two months.?
There was the feeling of being loved without restrictions. Passionately she tries to hold on to that beautiful feeling that is evolving more and more into a memory. Grasping. Don’t. Go. Away.
Chaos. Asking herself how did she ever let it become such a chaos? In her room, on her desk, in her head, in her heart. And moreover – how will she handle it? Where can she leave her thoughts, her doubts, her activism, her love, her passion, her hunger for more. There’s just so much you can do in 16 hours. Because her body needs sleep. 8 hours less of the 24 given to her. Add a fulltime job to it with a good 1,5h/day commuting…
Questioning. Like a 4 year old. Why is it that we live in a society based on injustice? Why is it that a whole lot of people put themselves first above everything? How have we evolved to a society that doesn’t care anymore if we kill a fellow human being or destroy planet earth? Why do we all think we can’t do anything about it?
Isn’t it so that if we are part of the problem – and we are – that we are part of the solution?
Choose. Choose who to spend your free time with. Choose what and where to eat. Choose when to clean up the mess. Choose who to love. Choose who to visit. Choose what party to go to. Choose your life direction. Choose who to spend your life with. Choose your career. Choose. It seems that we are spoiled by having so many choices.
Is it stupid to consider these choices? To actually reflect on our actions?
And once you’ve chosen – what consequences do your choices have?
WANTED: Hammock on island to get back to her roots. Wherever they are.